Woohoo!! My great experience get 1st runner in dancing competition

Wow, today is a great day. Well, actually Ah xiang ask me go to Kajang to see one of his friend studio, they got dancing exam. So we can go and support and also can dance.. Oh well, At first I was thinking whether I wan to go or not. Then I think I don have much chance be with my Crew, Simple united together and dance. Plus today I have nothing to do at home, BORED! So I decided to go la.

We went Kajang around 1 something, then they brought me and Nicholas buy JAZZ shoes, because are wearing the same shoes, so I also want to have one of it. I bought it, is Cool and nice... Feel good to have same shoe with my own crew. Well, we went to the studio, many people taking part of the examination. Well, the examination ends around 4 something, after that, they have boys and girls battle.. The boy battle was super funny and cool, Nicholas and Wa哥 got go for the battle, steam lol!!
When turned to girls battle. my crew friend keep on push me go for the battle, I keep on reject, part of the reason I reject is because I don have any step. But they keep on persuade me, end up I just joined la. Wow, this is my first time combat girls in such a way. I never dance in front of people, shake th body like nobody business. Well, I dance break,ballet and some soft movement together... I got 1st runner! haha i got a certificate and a hamper.... Haha, I was so happy. My crew keep on praise me very shock and geng, I feel so paiseh@@ anyway, nothing to be proud of, just a very good experience... I hope I can do it again.. Join some battle, if not when I grow older I don have the chance to join any battle....

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**My Three Cousin sisters**

12/9/10
My cousin sister from Teluk Intan came down to KL and visit us. Caroline, Kathryn and Sarah are my cousins, well, it's been such a long time we have no meet each other, i think almost 5 years... Actually I'm planning to go to their side, suddenly I receive their call that they are coming down and stay n my house for three days, I was so Happy. Well, want to see my cousins so greatly.

By God's grace, we finally get met. When I saw them, wow! Three of them are grown up, Caroline is elder than me few months only, but Sarah! My gosh~ She's tall and still have the baby look, so sweet. And Kathryn, the "sha po", still love to tease me and laugh like mad, just like me. Haha^^ So, that night, all of us, my family plus Da Yi, Grandma and Grand dad, we have dinner together. Woohoo, the food is delicious man~ Not always get to eat like this grand, so much food, can't eat finish also.

Hmm, when we went back home, I tell them tomorrow(Monday), I will bring them to Sunway for ice skating and then go Sungai Wang shopping. Yeah! All of us are excited, yeah, SHOPPING!!
We woke up at 6.30am because my dad out for work at 7.45am, no choice we have to come out that early to take bus. My dad took us to Kota Raya and there we took Metro bus go to Sunway. Kind of weird, that day no jam at all, but we praise god we arrive safely. Wow, first time go shopping mall this early, 9am!!!! Well, the ice skating place already open, so we pay RM21 with glove(RM8).

The first time I skate was 2008, August, I remember one of NS friend, Andrew, taught me how to skate. That day I taught my cousin how to skate, but this is my second time, and I don't skate well, but I tell them how to balance and how to skate properly. They fell lots of time, until Sarah got one long scratch, and Kathryn kena her thumb nail bleed and Caroline hurt his elbow and also the leg. Well, they are having fun, although they keep on falling. It's a good experience to fell on ice, haha^^

Around 11am, we decided to stop skating, because leg kinda pain@@ Then we just shop Sunway Pyramid. Before shopping, we went for lunch. So I brought them eat " Carl's Junior", Yummy^^ It's really big portion for us, we eat until wanna vomit. But they love it, Sarah keep on praise this is the best burger and french fries she ever had. 1pm, we decided not to waste time, so I take them go Sungai Wang, actually I'm not sure how to go, but if don't know just ask the people around lo... Haha, very funny, when i reach to Kota Raya, I don't know where is the train station, so I ask the taxi driver to show me the way, so pai sehXD Yeah!! Finally we reached Sungai Wang, arh!!! It's shopping time. Well, we walk from the bottom floor until 6 floor except 4th and 5th floor. Very tired, but I'm happy I did bought soemthing. Haha.... All of us are satisfied, but they say they will come next time and shop again. Next time, I will bring them elsewhere and shop. hoho^^ Really have an enjoyable day with them..

My Holiday..two weeks,,

Sigh.. actually this first week of my Holiday sucks man~~ the first day of my Holiday, I watch movie for whole day. So long didn't watch movie. It's good to watch movie for the whole day, sense of accomplishment,wakaka^^ Oh well, at least I can go for break dance class. Kind of felt left out actually in the dance class, but who cares, as long I get to learn new steps, and I wanna do it good! I hope I can dance and really be a B girl. Is cool to be a B girl. After I watch step up 3D, it really motivates me, but I can't be like them such a great dancer, somehow I still can be a good dancer just to dance for God, thank you that God grant me the rhythm in my body, when I listen to music I'm able to shake and move.

Haha, today finally I get to buy 3 story books.. hehe... actually I wanted to buy clothes, never mind, is late, better go home early. I also feel tired after the breakdance class, my body is ache, oh boy~~~ Need a massage@@

My 1st sem final exam finally ends.....

Gosh, finally my final exam is over at 3/9/10. Just to prepare for this final exam, I was stressed for it. I don't really have that much confident on myself, although I did studied. But I don't feel myself that good enough. I sometimes neglect the time with my BF, just to studied, because I know which is my priority. While I work in the Hospital, I always feel I'm not good as other people. I always do things very rush, but I started to realized how rush am I and other team member of mine did talk bad about me, everyday I will tell myself not to rush whenever I do anythings. Actually I kind of sad during Clinical posting, but the patients in the hospital motivates and encourage me a lot. I can feel their kindness and warmness towards me, although some of the patients are fussy, but you still have to act professionally.

Oh ya, very important and happy thing is, me, Sarah,Ding and Julie are back together now. Just like Sarah said,:" The time will come, we will be back together." Indeed, we are back together now. I praise God that God put us back together, we have been through many challenges, we understand each other, and we have learned a lesson. Doesn't matter what is the problem that makes us far apart, what matter is, actually, we are concern for each other. We love each other and we share our joy together. I was grateful to have Ding be my roommate and now is my buddy. I love her so much, she always take care of me, encourage me. Looi yoong my darling, I thank you her for being so close to me. And we have a lot of laughter together, we always laugh loudly like nobody business. And also Elizabeth, she is my little sister. I love her to^^ She is the one motivate me to read bible, I can see changes in Her and everyone. God's love and grace are upon us. Elizabeth and I always have devotion at night, is not a duty, but is a time for God.
God always speaks to us, truly, He does speaks to us every day and night. One thing we always pray about, is for Nic. WE really ask God to touch him, through God's Love that can melt his heart. I don't know when God will speaks to Him. But, me and Elizabeth will never give up pray for Him. We know there is an open way for Nick, that one day he will believe in Jesus.
For sure, I'm not perfect, I always make mistake, I ask God forgiveness, and repent. Only through Jesus, I can be clean and be a new creation.

An Unknown feeling........

This few weeks... I felt I'm lost child, a lost sheep that can't find my master and way back home.
I'm totally lost. I don't feel like smiling but I still force myself to smile and laugh, be happy.
I don't know why. I pray to God, what is going on around me????

"CRYING" become part of my daily activity. I cried when I was bathing, studying, listen music, talking to people, eating also can cry... WHY? you ask me why? I can't even tell you what is the problem. Many many things pass through my mind, about when I was young, secondary time, friends around me, relationship, families, the dark side of me that I myself don't know who am I. Sounds stupid that I become such depress, even though my friend also ask why my face look down and sad. I just told them because of my clinical posting, but to tell the truth, it is NOT!

I may feel tired in posting but my mind and soul is tired. I don't know where is my direction anymore, I know this is a challenge to me. I don't know I can cope it, can I go through or not. I can't really find a person to talk or rely on it. Even though I have a bf, but to tell truth, I sometime don't feel like telling him my stuff...Not to say I don't love him or don't trust him, just I don't want another person I talk with also have same depression with me, and then start to feel angry and sad for me. I don't want to! Parents don't listen, some more add another one have the same feelings with me, I rather keep it to myself. Am I turning away from God? Yes I can say, sometimes I do turn away from Him. Now, slowly I'm seeking for Him, my very best Friend, Jesus.

When I speak to Him, I can feel the peace in me, no matter other people don't understand me or how they say about me. But I know Jesus listen and show kindness, goodness and love towards me. Telling me, Don't be afraid, I am here for you, My light from heaven will shine upon you. Be still, and know I am the Lord Your God!

Yes, Mary Ann, be still, no matter how life it is, you still have to stand up and continue the journey in this world, wait until the day Jesus come. ...

First time tears drop show in front of patient..

Today, 5/8/2010, in the morning...
Me, Looi Yoong, Elizabeth and Ding meet a patient who had nose aid for 8 years.
He just undergone a surgery yesterday, when he sneeze out the phlegm all was blood. When I saw him such in pain, I was so sad and wander how he overcome this 8 years.
He told his story when he was teenager, He learned Kung Fu and Karate. He love swimming so much. but he keep on say all already pass.
When he talk about his sickness, and Looi Yoong father's had just passed away also had the same sickness with this uncle- Nose Aid. When Looi Yoong talk about his father, her tears drop. I understand how Looi yoong felt, and my tears drop too. Uncle saw Looi Yoong tears and His tears drops too. He tell us:" Now we are young, must take care of ourself, health is more important than anything. If have time, go travel around the world, enjoy the beautiful nature of our world." He told us. even though he has this sickness, he stilled do things he want to do. He went for diving in Bali, normally won't dare to dive if they have nose problem, but he did not fear. He just want to do the things he long for. I was touch and felt the pain in him. He did 102 times of chemo for his nose, until one year impaired. How sad it is, but he did not fall just because of his sickness. Yet he stilled stand strong and encourage us with full of strength.

We tried to talk to him about the Love of God, but in Him every religion is the same. I have the urge to tell him about Jesus, yet I don't have enough strength to tell Him. This is my first time start to ask people do you know bout Jesus? yet His answer give him a confirmed, but in my prayer, I hope one day there's a person step into his life and tell him about the Love of God.
Although I'm tired and unhappy during clinical posting, but because the strength and Love of God motivates me, I can't do on my own.

Yesterday night, I lead a small devotion with Looi Yoong and Elizabeth. God really speaks to us with word of God. He spoke to us in such miracle. We read Psalms 27... I think everyone should read this whenever you felt tired, unhappy, frustrated, doubt... three of us cried out and ask God for forgiveness because all these day we did not seek him, now we understand what God trying to tell us. I praise God that Holy spirit i guiding us and speaking to us. I'm grateful I still able to stand up once again and have faith in Him, My Lord...

all Glory and power to Him. Amen!