should I feel Disappointed or not?

I don really like this feeling and I hardly have this disappoint feeling.
We are friends at the first day of orientation, I go towards her to know her because I saw her sitting alone behind me, so I invited her to sat beside with me, and that time Sarah haven't reach yet. So we have know each other for one month plus, yet slowly I don't really understand what she's doing at all?! Sometime act like this sometime like that. aiyo~~~ Fan ar... I can tell she is a nice girl, just not yet grown up, so I always tell myself not to judge her in that sense, because is not fair anyway. I also have this problem before when I was in secondary school, until I went for National Service and study nursing course improve me a lot in many ways. I just hope one day I can tell her my feelings if not I will burst, but I don't have the guts to tell her. Even I have hard time to tell my BF my inner feelings. For all this year, I don't really tell my true feelings out, people can say I'm a happy and cheerful girl, yet deep inside hinder many unknown feelings. Only one Whom I trust is God, because He's the one only know my inner feeling more than any other people. I pray that god show me the way and provide me guidance, to become nurse must to build up critical thinking and making decision on the spot, I don't even have the confidence in this area. I know I have weakness in this areas. Aiyaya~~

Finally, a great accomplishment had done...Nurses day celebration

phew, before the celebration, I'm in-charge for my class performance. One is singing and the other is dancing. Well, is really a tired task for me, because I have to focus on this two performance and kinda stress out myself. I cried couple of times, just to let myself released, and then continue my work. To tell the truth, I kinda disappointed for few times, class not cooperative, Monitor din't coordinate the class, but somehow some of my friends understand me and willing to stand out and help me, so I won't stress out myself and felt tired. I do felt tired, sometime I doubt myself, whether I really is a good leader or not? Can I continue to take all this load of work. Yet I told myself:" Mary! You can! Because God is our refuge and strength. And Serving for my class team, is also serving God as well, How can I just think of myself, so selfish!" But still, sometimes I still felt stress and cry again..haha..So, my friends use to say i'm super woman, but i'm not...haha...

On the 7th MAy 2010, Is our nurses day celebration, all of us a freaking nervous, although I look calm, but am NOT! We did our rehearsal, everything goes well...I help them to warm up their voice so that they van sing louder and use stomach to sing...haha...

Okay, Angie and Nic attend our celebration as a support for me and Sarah..both of them really get along very well... I'm grateful to know Angie and be as my friend, so called" jie jie"...She told me alot of stuff that she has been through, I appreciate that...Okay, back to the title. Then, celebration starts at 3pm, kinda late for half an hour because wait for the VIP lo.... aiyaya, MALYSIA BOLEH LA! So our singing performance is the first one, and the singing did well, hooray! our dancing performance went well too, everything was just nice and good, teachers also praise us how much effort we put in it...Praise God! yeah...At last is photo time, Oh I Love It!okay, that's all....