Tomorrow is my Birthday!

Tomorrow is My birthday, Oh well... It's mean, I'm 18 years old! Sweet 18=p
Oh well,for me,celebrating birthday is not important at all, is a time for me reflect what I have done in 2009.(if someone want to celebrate with me, I will be glad to celebrate,haha^^). I'm happy many of my friend asked me to come out because they wanted to celebrate my birthday, and I hope I have car, if not is kinda difficult. You know, Malaysia is very hard to take bus.
Looking forward for 24th of November, is doesn't matter how fancy or simple birthday is it, but I still want to thank you for those who remember my birthday.
Muackzzz.... To all my beloved friend...


[PS:I will update my blog about the two foreigner come to my house stop by.]

The day has come......

Wow, kinda looking forward for tomorrow. Every year in Nov, we will invite two foreigner guests to our house and stay for 3 days 2 night, that's mean we are their foster parents, Haha^^ Oh well, we sure will bring them to look around our cities town, and bring them eat delicious food(doesn't matter expensive or not). In my mind, the best food is my mom home cooking. She really is a good cook, unfortunately, her daughters, which is me and my two sister, did not have her "cook talent". Honestly, I don't really know how to cook, and I'm lazy to cook either. I hate the oily and smoky kitchen, Arh! but I sometimes I still cook for my family to eat, a very simple meal. Surprisingly, my sister Rebecca said I cook quite delicious, but one problem is the dishes that I cook don't have the "flavor" come out. Haha, I admit, because when I really put very little salt in it, I scared the food will become very salty, I rather cook it very "plainly or tasteless"...=p
O well, after this foreigner go back, I have to start busy again.... my ballet steps ar!!!!!! Thanks God for giving me wisdom, I still have a few steps to go then the whole dance will be perfect Hooray!!!

1 Nov 2009- A meaningful interview

[Sunday]

The day for interview has come, I was totally looking forward for this day. I was so excited but on the same time I felt nervous and scared, oh PUH-LEEZ!!!! Well, I want to clarify, I did want to come for BB that day, somehow Iyao say we need to discuss the dance for the concert and for the Christmas. So I quickly ask Sir Kelvin for permission just attend for the interview. So I just want to sorry to all BB members that I've not attend BB for almost one month, totally felt like I'm a irresponsible Coperal!!! Okay, let's go to the main topic.
The interview starts at 2.45pm, fortunately,I'm not the first one go for interview, Haha^^ Sergeant Teng Hooi is the first one, I'm the second, good for me. after Teng Hooi, it's my turn now....><,YIKES! Before I when in, I was so nervous until I'm totally crazy, my mind keep on pops out this question, should I tell my little secret that kept inside my heart for 5 years??? SHOULD I?? What if I tell them, will they spread out and talk bad about me? But all this thinking minded make me can't breathe so I quickly pray that God calm me down, and grant me wisdom to speak and not having a single fear to speak out! Because I've already promise God and myself to speak the truth, I want to let them know how terrible I felt for this 5 years!!

Okay, after praying I felt better, and I hope this time my tears won't roll down, IMPOSSIBLE!
There are 5 officers and 1 captain sitting on the chair looking on me when I came in the room, so creepy man~ okay, Chilled, MARY! Everything will be just steady and fine~ So the first question came out was:"what have you learn in BB for this 5 years and what do you think about BB(bad or good)? " " Well, I did learnt a lot of things in BB, first is leadership, and blah blah blah...... " I replied. And the second question I answer is kinda shocked for them, because I really said the truth out, I can't stand it anymore and I just spilled out this words, "I don't like BB for this 5 years, the pains,hurts and suffer I've been through never been taken away." Okay, other conversation I can't really tell you all much, because is between me and the officers. So I officers won't spreading out, and start telling people what we have shared. When I told them about my true feelings, my tears non stop rolling down, God really touched me and keep on telling me that is time to speak what I should I say. And is really like releasing all my burden, sorrow,complains,hatred and hurts.... I was happy that Sir Kelvin and captain tried to understand and they actually gave me some encouragement and supportive words. At that moment, This is the first time that I actually put trust on them, I mean officers. This interview do help us speak out and release ourself, if not i really will burst like a balloon!
God is great, He always do wonderful things on us, and I do appreciate what officers have done for us. I know of all us have been through tough times, but all is gone, because God has taken away from us, just leave everything to Him, He's the only one can help us.