1 Nov 2009- A meaningful interview

[Sunday]

The day for interview has come, I was totally looking forward for this day. I was so excited but on the same time I felt nervous and scared, oh PUH-LEEZ!!!! Well, I want to clarify, I did want to come for BB that day, somehow Iyao say we need to discuss the dance for the concert and for the Christmas. So I quickly ask Sir Kelvin for permission just attend for the interview. So I just want to sorry to all BB members that I've not attend BB for almost one month, totally felt like I'm a irresponsible Coperal!!! Okay, let's go to the main topic.
The interview starts at 2.45pm, fortunately,I'm not the first one go for interview, Haha^^ Sergeant Teng Hooi is the first one, I'm the second, good for me. after Teng Hooi, it's my turn now....><,YIKES! Before I when in, I was so nervous until I'm totally crazy, my mind keep on pops out this question, should I tell my little secret that kept inside my heart for 5 years??? SHOULD I?? What if I tell them, will they spread out and talk bad about me? But all this thinking minded make me can't breathe so I quickly pray that God calm me down, and grant me wisdom to speak and not having a single fear to speak out! Because I've already promise God and myself to speak the truth, I want to let them know how terrible I felt for this 5 years!!

Okay, after praying I felt better, and I hope this time my tears won't roll down, IMPOSSIBLE!
There are 5 officers and 1 captain sitting on the chair looking on me when I came in the room, so creepy man~ okay, Chilled, MARY! Everything will be just steady and fine~ So the first question came out was:"what have you learn in BB for this 5 years and what do you think about BB(bad or good)? " " Well, I did learnt a lot of things in BB, first is leadership, and blah blah blah...... " I replied. And the second question I answer is kinda shocked for them, because I really said the truth out, I can't stand it anymore and I just spilled out this words, "I don't like BB for this 5 years, the pains,hurts and suffer I've been through never been taken away." Okay, other conversation I can't really tell you all much, because is between me and the officers. So I officers won't spreading out, and start telling people what we have shared. When I told them about my true feelings, my tears non stop rolling down, God really touched me and keep on telling me that is time to speak what I should I say. And is really like releasing all my burden, sorrow,complains,hatred and hurts.... I was happy that Sir Kelvin and captain tried to understand and they actually gave me some encouragement and supportive words. At that moment, This is the first time that I actually put trust on them, I mean officers. This interview do help us speak out and release ourself, if not i really will burst like a balloon!
God is great, He always do wonderful things on us, and I do appreciate what officers have done for us. I know of all us have been through tough times, but all is gone, because God has taken away from us, just leave everything to Him, He's the only one can help us.